I just watched this movie "He's Just Not That Into You" with my best Asian-American friend, Jess, and I came to the conclusion that we are all crazy. Literally, certifiably insane. We all work ourselves up into frenzies about the littlest things and our brains have the power to convince us of the stupidest conclusions.
I've noticed this to be especially true in the pursuit of summer work. I auditioned for a theatre and got several callbacks for a particular role. The callbacks went really well and somewhere deep down inside the bottom of my soul I felt like I booked the job. But, of course, I wasn't going to let my brain know that. So I convinced myself otherwise. One day went by, no email. I threw myself to the gutter assuring myself that there is no way in hell I could of possibly booked the job. How stupid was I too think that I was actually talented enough or castable enough to get it?! And even though I came to this "conclusion" I still checked my email like a crazy person every single day. Like an anxious lover waiting for text messages. I lost sleep. I had nightmares about casting meetings where they threw my headshot away. And then a week later, they called me and offered me the job.
So am I crazy? After watching this movie, I've decided the answer is no. I'm just like everyone else. Neurotic to the bone. I've also come to the conclusion that our smart phones don't help our neuroticism at all. Before having email on my phone I would anxiously wait all day to check my email and then I'd suffer one huge blow at the end of the night when I realized I didn't get anything. Now I suffer lots of little blows throughout the day every time I check my phone.
So now, I must learn to relax. It's a lesson that I hope will come with time, right? I sure hope so.
3 comments:
that movie is so true though! loved it.
So so true. I love when the girl breaks the mirror in the floor and then gets a broom and starts cleaning it up. Too funny.
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